If my kids didn't know the f-bomb before this morning, they sure know it now....along with a few other choice expressions! I got a ticket for speeding on the way to school. I'm not proud about it and I feel angry even though I have no right to be.
I am teaching today plus I was dropping my kids off. So, not only did I need to be on time for myself and the students who expected me, I was under pressure to get my own kids to school on time.
There's this long mountain grade between my house and the school, and well, it's just super easy to speed, even when I'm not in a hurry.
But today I was in a hurry and frustrated because my kids didn't follow all the steps I barked out from my bathroom to keep them on track for getting out the door on time and THEY made us late.
So of course, I took all my anger out on them: which basically means I was speeding as a passive aggressive way to show that their insubordination pissed me off. They didn't even notice. They just ignored my dramatic efforts in favor of playing with their new DS-i.
So, when I saw the cop in my rear view window, my kids were done for. I blamed everything on them. It was awful. All I accomplished was to make a bad situation worse, and now all of us have a ruined day.
I feel like throwing up. I need to turn around. I need God today.
2 comments:
Don't beat yourself up. We are not perfect, we only strive to be Godly women. That is all you can do. And of course, apologize to the kids...and that will teach them a huge lesson in itself.
And by the way....love reading you. Love your writing. Mom to Mom and Christian to Christian...I feel you.
Thanks. For sure, motherhood for me is a major work in progress.
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